Random thoughts

One of my favourite activities is dreaming – and another favourite activity is learning. Why not make a nice combination of these two activities?

That’s why I have taken this major step towards a career I had never imagined. My head is filled with thoughts of all kinds. One part of it says “oh Anina, do you think you can manage a career like that? You don’t even know for sure yet, that it will become a reality? Do you have the courage of doing this?

The other part of my head AND my heart says: of course! I once closed a door to a big part of myself. That part of me that is craving adventures and is yearning for always learning. When I opened that door again, it was like seeing a new part of myself. And that part of me would make a great career at sea.

Maybe all that also has to do with age. I am still very young, yet, I’ve went from being in my first-twenties, to mid-twenties to have the age of 30 in sight. And with age comes new ideas and ambitions.

When I was 20, I wrote a note to myself, and I found that note yesterday, when organizing my home office, and cleaning up – it was a note about 10 things to achieve in my life.

I’m not going to mention them all – but one of them was to learn 10 languages. But no words of what languages they should be, except I had plans of learning Icelandic just for fun… or at least.. ALMOST for fun, as I did have plans of studying 6 months in Iceland. Then I met my boyfriend from the Faroe Islands, and I chose studying him and Faroese language instead.. if you know what I mean.

And so – without realising it, I’m one step closer to fulfil some of my dreams from back then. I just have to pick 7 other languages, and three of them is not far from being achieved, as I know some German, and a bit Swedish and Norweigan..and with Faroese, I got Icelandic for “free” even though I don’t speak it, except a few phrases.

So, constantly learning has to be the goal of my life. I won’t say that I think so much about who I am and all that – I’m pretty much in touch with myself and my soul. But still – it’s fun to discover new parts of one self.

So, said with other words: I’m very excited AND nervous of what future has to offer. It’s like leaving one world to enter another. Like leaping over a huge gap – let’s say between two sides of a huge ravine, and I’m currently mid-air between the mountainsides. Will the other side be better than the one I left? Will I be able to leap back if that’s not the case? Should I rather have built a bridge than spending all my energy in one giant leap?

I haven’t landed yet, so I don’t know. I just know that believing in my own abilities and will, I will make it safely to the other side of the gap. The only thing that would make me crash, is if my application is rejected. If so, I know myself well enougto know I will find strength enough to climb back up.

But honestly – all my papers; exams, tests, results, statements ect. looks so good, so why shouldn’t it work out for me?

I feel really optimistic about what 2009 has to offer. One sad thing is that can’t spend much time in the Faroe Islands that I love so much, but I guess one can’t have it all? Afterall, I am from Denmark, and some time in that country, close to my family and friends wouldn’t hurt – only the time I will miss my boyfriend. But our relationship has proven itself to be very strong. I have taken education in Denmark while he worked full time in the Faroes. We can do that again, knowing that we’ll have an interesting future together to share when I get back home.

All I can say is: life seems to be beautiful and challeging at the same time. Carpe Diem.

🙂

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